First entry! One more thing I'll start and give up on after a couple weeks. Usually I do things just to see if I can. Once I discover I can, which I always do, I quit. Unlike your standard quitter who bails when things get hard, I bail when things get easy.
People take comfort in blogging because there are no rules and therefore no wrong way of doing it. I'm doing it because there's no right way to do it either.
I'm studying engineering, I hate it. They recruited me with promises of cutting edge technology and creative problem solving. In reality, it's a degree in emulation. The prof. shows us how to solve a problem then we show him that we can do it. The only thing that frustrates me more than this program are the students. They all seem to like it, I'm near the bottom of my class. This sounds insane, which is something you should get used to, but I honestly believe that they get better grades than me because I'm smarter than they are. My excuse remains that I could beat all of them in school but why the fuck would I want to. I'm still in the program because I didn't have the balls to drop out in first year, and now the investment is too big not to get the degreee. I've come closer to flunking out than any other student still in the program. Last semester I was days away from being kicked out. When I found out I would still be in the program, I was relieved not to have to explain this to my parents, but I had a much stronger feeling of dread. When I think about the fact that I have another year of this shit, well I stop thinking about it and get stoned.
Fuck it, I'm gonna go get stoned.
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